Can beauty come out of ashes?
From Ashes – Céline Dion
I have been working on getting the first draft of the second book, From Ashes, ready.
Once upon a time, I felt connected to the work, and that I would finish it in record time. The second book was to be something that took you on a whirlwind of emotions. I had it all planned. It was going to be epic.
Then life happened. Life took me in a million different directions from my original plan. Repeatedly, I have come up against roadblocks. I had begun to think that things were going to be better, and they never got that way. I struggled with my mental health, I struggled with my physical health.
But, one thing that I never wanted to let go of, even when the world seemed to be telling me to, is this damn story. That there would be a place for it, and an audience for it. I am learning that everything worth having does not come easy.
Today I sat, my daughter having started her kindergarten yesterday (yes, there will be a post on Shiny Mommy soon) and listened to the playlist, which came from an iTunes playlist back in the day that was put on CD, and the emotions hit me. They hit like a tsunami of things that I have pushed to the back of my mind. That I have pushed away because I had a million other things that I needed to deal with.
I have struggled with the fact that there is some music that really inspires me, but that it is like a guilty pleasure to listen to. Especially when most of what I listen to could be classified as weird nordic metal.
So, as the song states, can beauty come out of ashes? I hope so. Because this story isn’t going away for me.
And I will tell it.