Blog — Amy M. Young

Updates – Backstage Pass/All Access

No, I ‘ve not forgotten about them.

Updates!

The big part of why they’ve not been seeing updates is that we’ve had some major construction going on, and because of the sheer level of bass and other sound, I’ve not been able to get anything done that does not sound like utter crap. Yes, I have sound dampening around my studio. Unfortunately, even my phones pick up on the noise around us, and that means I’ve put it on a very very temporary hiatus.

Thankfully, that looks to be ending soon, for which I am incredibly happy. I did know we were going to have construction around us, but I didn’t consider that it would affect my ability to do creative endeavours. Totally had an effect on it that I didn’t count on.

So those are the updates there. They’re both going to be returning/starting very soon, and when I get things ready to roll, I’ll update both here and on my social media with when you can expect it to see them.

Things I’ve Not Written On The Page…

It’s been a long time since I sat down and actually written something for the blog on the site.

Since my dog passed away, I have been doing a lot of soul searching, and trying to decide where I should be going next, what I should be doing.

My heart was shattered by the loss of that small, fuzzy, loving dog. More than I care to admit most days. With that happening and the fact that my father is still being treated for cancer, well, my heart is still hurting and it’s hard to focus some days.

Introspection can be a double edged sword, and I am definitely working on getting out of my own head and back into what really matters to me.

To answer the biggest question – will we see the follow up to A Desert Song?

Yes. I will finish the trilogy, but I am also going to be working on other things that I enjoy. You see, not to tell tales, but there was a point in life where I really enjoyed a lot of different creative endeavours, and after spending about two years being torn down by someone, I couldn’t really do much. I am thankful that I finished the bare bones of the book before this person came into my life, otherwise I’d still be trying to get it done.

I had a few years of one bad experience after another with people who had the same personality types, and issues, and I am finally making more progress. My mental health professionals are very pleased with my progress, and we’re making progress in other, non-related, areas.

I will be bringing my Vlog to the site soon. I encountered delays because of health issues – headaches from the bowels of hell are not really something that allows you to stare at a screen or have the bright studio lights on you.

But it was definitely time to let you all know that I’m back, and working. You’ll see the other things that I mention soon.

Taking A Break

This was originally posted over on SecretPeriwinkle.

This is a damn hard thing for me to say. I have prided myself on my ability to push through some tough situations. But this time, I can’t.

As you may know, Tuesday morning, our youngest Chihuahua boy went out for a second morning run after my spouse put our daughter on the bus to head to school. He never came back from that run, and the entire day really has me feeling like I’ve been hit by a train emotionally, physically – pretty much every way you can think.

We never expected what happened that day – that our Ozzy would go into uncontrollable seizures. That we’d have to rush him to the vet and say goodbye in a matter of an hour. I’m quite sure we got through that day on pure adrenaline and now, I’m at least sitting back and really feeling the grief and hurt.

So, I’m taking a bit of a vacation to recharge and regroup. We’re going to get started on the whole studio move early and take the time to find a way that we can honour the memory of the most loving, gentle dog that we have ever met.

I’ve been feeling like I’m on a treadmill that is getting faster and more out of my control lately because I haven’t been able to find a way to stop and get a breath in, to get a true rest. I am taking that time now, because if I don’t I know my body and mind are going to force the issue.

I’ll still be on social media. I’ll still be talking. I just won’t be doing any streaming, or doing anything creative for anyone but me, as part of taking care of myself.

Mark your calendars. I’ll be back around the 15th of May.

Take care of yourselves. <3

Updates to Plans…

Yes, I know it’s been a while. Life has definitely kept me busy. So I wanted to sit down and give you all some updates to my ongoing plans.

Backstage Pass is still happening, but we’ve changed some things about it. It’s going to be a podcast and a vlog soon. I am also in the middle of preparing to move everything into a studio. The fun never stops here!

I am also working on both logos (for other people) and drafting my books. This has had some bad side effects (as in my hands get all messed up) – but I am working on getting that better.

I am happy that spring is here, but I am trying to patiently wait until I can get vaccinated. It’s not easy. At this point I haven’t seen my family in about two years total, and I am getting increasingly cranky about the roll out here. It’s a long rant, and I’ll not subject you to it.

So that’s a basic overview of the “updates to plans” that are in the works. I believe in showing the result, but as the path from point a to point b is a bit long, an update was needed.

Take care of yourselves!

Working – An Update

It’s been a long while since I’ve had the chance to sit down and update what is going on. I have been working, as much as you don’t see it right now.

Life decided that I could handle several days at once, and while I have come out the other side battered but unbowed, as it were, I’ve had to delay the podcast, which makes me upset at myself. So, I’ll be working on getting the next update up as soon as I can.

I’ve had to take some time to recharge my internal batteries and just deal with a whole bunch of things.

I’m still getting my posts about boundaries and toxic people together, and I’m still working on books. I am working on being better than I was yesterday, and just being a good human. I know that I can only control me and my responses and at this point in life, most of it is going to be getting the response of silence. It’s not that I don’t see the toxic behaviours, and bullshit doesn’t go unnoticed, but responses to anyone who is committed to twisting everything and misunderstanding me isn’t worth my effort.

It’s been about a year since we went into COVID precautions, and yes, it’s still had an excessive impact on my life. Like all of us, I am stressed and looking forward to when we’re able to visit those we love again. I may be an introvert, but this damn pandemic has worn me down. I saw the other day an analogy that we’re all feeling like when you walk down the aisle in an airplane. Everyone is stressed, and walking carefully, and we don’t want to bump our stress into someone else’s because we’re all at wit’s end.

I’m trying to concentrate on the positive, but some days it is awfully hard work to find it. But I keep working towards that goal.

Until next week – take care of yourselves.

hearts