When you’re happy, you enjoy the music. When you’re sad, you understand the lyrics.
One thing I have never shied away from discussing is the fact I struggle with depression. Lately, it’s been a hard time for me – I’m fighting uphill on so many fronts, or at least it feels like it. I am so tired of struggling, and I just want to shut out the world and concentrate on healing myself to the point where I feel I can handle things.
It feels like I got caught out in a summer rain, in completely the wrong clothes.
I have been busy on a creative front, and it never is easy. I would love to be one of those people who it comes easily to. But I need to lower my expectations, which is hard when you already have a perfectionist streak.
I also suck at marketing myself. I know I’m not the only one of my friends who has this issue. We’ve been taught by the world to not toot our own horns (for lack of a better term), and it’s really hard to unlearn that. It’s not a humble brag for us, it’s a case of we have a hard time with praise. We got told to be humble, to not brag, to keep our heads down.
But enough on that. I am working hard behind the scenes here, and while I deal with getting myself healthy again, hopefully, I will be able to share some excellent news soon.