• Girl standing in the middle of a foggy road, looking off in a different direction

    Looking for direction

    It seems to be this time of year. I find myself in a mental quandary. I’m looking for direction from that lump in my skull. Sadly, all it does is remind me that I had so many ideas at one point, and right now, I’m so overwhelmed that I feel like I’m frozen and spinning my wheels. You’d think that, by now, I’d have my life sorted. I have so many author friends who can write, and sometimes that is discouraging. It becomes a whirlpool of “why is my life so out of control now that I can’t do shit all??”, dragging my mind and spirits down with it. This…

  • Making A Note

    It hasn’t been easy going for me in the writing department. I have been doing some soul searching and the burdens that I’ve carried for the longest time are coming to the surface. As I peel back those layers, I’ve come to realize a few things. Mainly that I am much stronger than I think I am. Also that I have endured a lot of abuse – mostly mental and verbal, but some physical. That’s a hard load to pull along with you. I wish it were as easy as just leaving it behind. But the reality of it is that it shapes us. We have control over how we…

  • When They Live…

    Yesterday, on my personal page, I posted a Tumblr post image. I also posted it to my own page, so it is there as well.   It got a few of us talking. Sometimes it’s like they are there, they are sentient. I mean, we know they’re just figments of our imaginations, but sometimes they are demanding more than figments of our imaginations should be. Ask any writer, and I’m sure they’ll tell you of at least one time that they could almost feel their characters stares drilling into their heads. (It’s the “C’mon, write me dammit” look). Lately, as my pain has been receding, the bastards are speaking up again. They…

  • Reframe, Rewind, Relearn

    Imposter syndrome sucks. It really hits me when I try to get beyond the crap that has happened to me in the last five years. I really don’t care to talk about it today, but I need to reframe my entire way of doing things. As the post is titled – reframe, rewind, relearn. I’ve decided to work on getting things planned and getting ahead of the game. It’s going to take a while, and because having chronic illness can sometimes move the goal-posts when you’re damn well right there – I know I need to be flexible. In the spirit of this, I have invested in a planner. Yep,…

  • Under Construction

    Yet again, I’m redoing this place. Why you ask? Because I say. Because I got away from what my main drive for the place was. What my writing was about. And if you ask again why, well I suggest you watch the Spoonie Author’s Network page, because Ima be talking about it there. Also a lot of it was self doubt. I design stuff, and despite this being an occasionally paid gig, I felt like I couldn’t do anything (hello imposter syndrome). So yeah. I kind of let the bad get in front of the good. (Bad author/blogger – no cookie) So mind the dust. I’m working on the construction…