• Planner

    Planning gone wrong

    So I have been gone for a while. It wasn’t planned. In fact it was completely planning gone wrong. I couldn’t get anything together on time for multiple reasons. I swear that time seemed to vapourize when I sat down to do something, and then there were the million things that decided they needed attention right fucking now. I’ve been having sleep issues yet again, but there is a difference this time. I’m working through it. I am getting better. I’ve been dealing with things coming up that have smacked me in the face from the past, and at this point, I really am looking at it as I’m not going…

  • Me Time

    You might have noticed that I have been absent for the past bit. Haven’t been ill or the like. Just have been trying to get centered and have some me time. I have a lot on my mind, and not the least of it is coming to terms with the fact, that no matter how I look at it, I am disabled. It does not matter what you call it – I am never going to be fully able bodied in my life again. It is not an easy thing to wrap your head around, and society does NOT make it any easier. You can’t win. I get dirty looks…

  • Trying to Write

    Oh man. I have been trying to write over the last month, and somewhat succeeding. Having gotten an infection that was pretty damn serious and then dealing with the fallout of that…. well, I’m still not back to 100% (even for a spoonie) and my body is really really not happy with me (antibiotics are hell on the body). Of course, I hate being the centre of attention. I know, I write and I’m an introvert. Usually, it’s a job we do all on our own so that’s normally okay. But I really just don’t get people who want to be at the centre of medical attention. Munchausen Syndrome boggles…

  • Brain Drippings

    So, I’ve just kind of given up on keeping a schedule for blogging. I’ve had  a good amount of success in doing so, but I continually fucking fail, and that makes me feel like shit because – well, the human brain doesn’t take well to failure (science – bitches). But it all doesn’t help me with getting my creative drive running again. I spend more time agonizing over blog entires in a week than I do creating fiction. And considering that is one of the two things I do all week as a ‘job’… At this point, I am going to try to blog three times a week. I have…

  • Coding for Fun and Profit?

    Not much to say right now that you’ll all want to read. I’m coding something weblike for a friend. I am exhausted, the little miss is having a hard time lately with sleeping and why must one more chapter lead to three am in the morning and a finished book? Also, Joey from Friends’ trick of putting a book that scares you in the freezer – well, it doesn’t work so well on electronics. 😉