• Am I Good Enough

    Am I Good Enough?

    The Lies Anxiety and Imposter Syndrome Tell I’ve always been an anxious type of person. As long as I can remember I worried about damn near everything. Most of the time these worries were in my head, and I could keep them there. I’ve always been asking myself “Am I Good Enough?” But as I got older, the worries got bigger, bigger than me, bigger than my ability to handle them.  When I was 19, my ADHD diagnosis came with a side order of anxiety disorders (GAD – Generalized Anxiety Disorder and OCD – Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) and depression.  I didn’t start medication until I was 30 for them. I did…

  • Take Note

    take note phrase to notice something and try to remember it because you think it is important MacMillan Thesaurus The first week of NaNoWriMo is nearly over. I’m actually keeping a good pace despite restarting my project three days in with something else that had kept my attention more easily. I will eventually get that story written, but I’m not stupid enough to challenge the universe when things don’t line up for me to complete it without it feeling forced. So I decided to sit back and take note of what was going on. I enjoyed the story, but I needed to do more research, and while that is kind…

  • A Blank Page

    “Each new day is a blank page in the diary of your life. The secret of success is in turning that diary into the best story you possibly can.” Douglas Pagels I’ve been away from writing here for a while. A part of it was the fact that I’ve been dealing with three people (myself included) who have had the worst cold I’ve seen in a while. That, thankfully, is almost done its course and things are finally getting back on track. If you follow my parenting adventures over at Shiny Mommy, you’ll know that my daughter was just diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum. The other reason why…

  • Like the Phoenix Rising

    I know that I’ve said it before, but every time someone thinks that they’ve got me down, I end up bouncing back. It may look like I’m going down in flames, but, like that proverbial phoenix rising from the ashes, I am reborn, I come back better than before. Maybe I’m a T-1000? Watching what is going on in my life, I am learning to spot people who seem to think that they know me, when they’ve got a warped view of who I actually am from a third party, and usually a third party who decided that they didn’t like it when I started to advocate for myself and…

  • Torn To Shreds

    So, I’m working on the second book. My hands are full with so much right now that I’m amazed I have time to type this out. Of course, I listen to music as I write, and this song kept coming up when I wrote the first bit of the first draft. It felt then, and feels now, like a good summation of the main character’s feelings. It’s also how I have felt in writing. People who claim to have had good motives end up tearing me to shreds. Despite what might be said, I am a resilient person (my doctor says so 😉 ). It is sometimes so hard to…